Day 230

Got a filling, saw my best friend, went to work and hated my existence.

I really need to quit that job. But I need money. The Struggle.

I have so much to do, no time to do it, and I’m stressing out about it. I have been doing so much life planning I am totally not in tune with my emotions. So task oriented right now. So glad I’m not in a relationship right now, cause I could not handle that shit. I have a job and school to worry about.

Day 229

After having a dream I’ve decided I’m going to reorganize my room. I bought some baskets and plan on rearranging my bed, shelves, chair, redoing my closet and probably putting in a dresser. Lots to do.

Spent the evening with my friend Logan who was leaving for school in the morning. He’s also a bunch of fun to hang out with.

We had a work training and I ran a station like usual. However there is now a new “no earrings” policy which I am not going to conform too. My jewelry is a form of my self-expression and my bosses can either deal with it or say goodbye to me. I’ve been wanting to leave anyways. I think I’ll quit life guarding and switch to only doing lessons after this quarter.

Classes start in a week. I’m ready.

Day 228: Moulton Falls rope swing and cliff jumping with my friend Sharon. It was our last big hurrah before she leaves for college. I will miss her lovely face and her clumsiness. Hopefully it won’t be too long before i see her again!

Sorry I haven’t posted in a while guys.

I’ve been busy. I’ll be back soon!

We tend to forget that happiness doesn’t come as a result of getting something we don’t have, but of appreciating what we do have.

Day 227

On my journey back home from Bellingham to Portland I had 4 very intriguing conversations with 4 very different men.

Frank, the attorney from Las Vegas who taught law at the university level for years. He is an older man with a passion for people.

Logan, the young bartender who hates his job, has a communications major from Western and a passion for music. He hopes to move to Seattle.

Cameron, the anarchist hippie who helps start cooperations and loves to see people working and living together. Never have a met a more intelligent and compassionate person. He inspired me.

And Marc, the mechanical engineer who lives in Portland, hates his job and wants to pursue a brighter future though he’s unclear of what that looks like. He was lonely and probably looked at me in a future relationship light, and though I don’t share that, I enjoyed the telling of childhood stories and emotions and life we shared with one another.

It was a marvelous day of social interaction.

Only by examining our personal biases can we truly grow as artists; only by cultivating empathy can we truly grow as people.
Jen Knox (via feellng)

(via feellng)

Being rejected from something good just means you were being pointed toward something better.

(via realizes)

Day 226

Last full day in Bellingham was spent walking along the bay and old town Fairhaven both in daylight and at dusk. I’m going to miss these beautiful sunsets and the starry skies when I leave.

Also found a hidden jem: Skylarks Hidden Cafe. Sort of a classical renaissance yet old saloon type of ambiance with live music in the evenings.

Spending the day by myself, I really enjoyed walking around, seeing the sights and shops and enjoying some good company in the later hours. I have the feeling that everything is going to be okay. Even if I’m alone, I can still have these moments.

Sometimes you have to forget what’s gone, appreciate what remains, and look forward to what’s coming next.